The Simple Life

What I'd give to have a narrow mind
What I'd give to have nothing to find
No goals to achieve, loved ones to leave
And no motherchuffing ties that bind

Life would be so simple if that were true
No more sleepless nights thinking of you
No more days stuck beneath a cloud
No more desires to make you proud

Life would be so easy if I were brain dead
But I think too much instead
I dream of ignorance being so blissful
Yet I'm feeling so down and so damn pitiful

How I'd love to have low expectations
Spending all day playing on the playstation
But I'm cursed so I can never sit still
Now I live my life dependant on a green and yellow pill

Building Blocks

Truth be told, the grudges i hold
Come together to produce lyrical gold
So i recycle my stories for you to hear
Over and over until they get old

Take a pill, sip my drink
And let the pen spill the ink
Inhale smoke from my cigarette
As I take a moment to think

In this state of mind all the time
In my zone i'm so hard to find
So many years of hanging my head low
Finally claiming my time to shine

(Here it goes...)

Don't get me wrong because I'm no longer bitter
But I'm sure that she used to be much fitter
The saying goes you can't polish a turd
But you can cover one in make-up and glitter

Welcome to the Future

Welcome to the future, leave the past behind
Start again fresh and pay no mind
Let karma deal with those who've dealt you pain
Let's evolve while the foolish just stay the same

No more bitching about stupid bitches
No more backstabbing friends fucking your ex's
No more hot and cold Welsh girls fucking with my mind
Middle finger to you as I leave you far behind

The DeLorean picks up pace and leaves this place
It'll be too soon if never again I see your face
Goodbye to you playing up and working up my jealousy
Goodbye to you playing a whore and then blaming me

Who am I kidding? Forever and a day I'll hold this grudge
Never before has a person made me want to vomit so much
And fuck you and good riddance to that backstabbing little shit
I hope your cock rots off inside that fucking bitch!

.083085 (Part One)

From the day I was born, from the first time I screamed so loud
All I ever wanted to do was make you proud
If I ever fall short of your hopes and dreams
Please know this isn't as easy as it seems

Running against the wind, fighting the shadows
Weight of the world on my shoulders, though it never shows
I hope and dream to one day reach the finish line
I just hope that I haven't wasted too much time

From the day I was born and brought into the family
I just wanted to pay back those who had accepted me
Everything I do is done to make you proud of me
And I pray to whoever listens that one day you'll see

The frustration built until one day I cut myself wide
I wanted to let the demons out until I cried
But never did it work, so my struggle continued on
So now I have my pill crutch to lean on....

Sick

Sick of people saying they'll keep in touch, when they never do
Sick of of grey skies when they should be blue
Sick of living this lie when it should be true
Sick of being so alone when I should be with you

Middle of the Night

The clock strikes 3, three times
Every time it chimes, sends shivers down my spine
Time passing even as I sit still
Trying to smother the urge to kill

Close my eyes that fill blood red
Sneak around whilst everyone's in bed
Slowly fill the bath until it reaches brim
Remove all my clothes before stepping in

Lower myself gently as regrets wash away
Realisation that there is no other way
Further down until your head is submerged
Evil grin, given in to that sinful urge

Memories rush from baby birth day one
To present and the last time you saw the sun
But imagery of Mother's tears from second born's death
Forces you up to take another breath

Cnwy

Ink brought us together, now we're forever apart
She lifted me up, and then shattered by heart
Before we met, we'd talk on the phone for hours
About how when we'd meet, I'd shower her with flowers

It seemed destined to be, seemed so right
I knew as soon as I saw her, I'd squeeze her in tight
We got so close, just by talking on the phone
She even told me that her home was my home

The left side of her bed was mine for the taking
The day couldn't come quick enough, I was sick of the waiting
Five hours on the train, but every second was worth it
Because when I saw her face, it was just so perfect

We hugged on the platform like a scene from the movies
Her kiss was so sweet and everything I'd thought it'd be
We went straight upstairs when we got in
Electric sparks when I was touching her skin

Never before had I felt so at home
Dreading the time when I'd have to leave her alone
But all my wishing couldn't help as that day soon came
And I had to pack up my things and get back on the train

Not a minute had passed and I was already missing her
Remembering how I had only just been kissing her
But I'd see her again, of that I was sure
If I was ever feeling down, she was my cure

Things soon changed when I crashed into the bend
Because now all she wanted was to be my friend
Not ready for anyone else in her life, is what she claimed
And I guess for that she can't really be blamed

But it still hurts how you suddenly changed your mind
From loving me to not having the energy or the time
I'm sorry, but my feelings mean we can never be just friends
So when it comes to me and you, this is the end

Burning Bridges

The person this was dedicated to and inspired by has the original copy of the poem. It was written for her eyes only, so it won't be replicated here.

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